Warped

When something goes wrong, I always feel that why did it had to. I put in so much efforts. So much of my time. Valuable time.

And then, after just a fickle of introspection, I realise that the efforts I was thinking about weren't really efforts at all. They were just mere figments of my imagination. While doing something, I would have been thinking that I am doing something constructive, while the truth is that I never do anything constructive at all...

This has to change. Immediately.

A Load Taken Off...

It does feel good to have a nice long chat with an old friend. Especially when it relieves some of the tensions both the people have been facing.

Heartache. Discomfort. Pain. Outright agony.

To see all these and more disappear in a matter of minutes is elating. I don't think I have anymore to say. Just this: If you have been having problems with a friend, talk it out. Don't think what will happen if something goes wrong. Trust me. With friends, it never does. Never ever. Friendships always stand the test of time.

Mine did.

Examinations and Evaluations

Everything that is there on Diwali is a message to me. A message that tells me that the fire in the heart should never go out. I have to keep it burning. Especially when I have exams right after the festival. Sad, isn't it...

The professors and teachers should know that we'd be learning stuff only as well as they teach. If they are stupid at passing on the knowledge, how are we supposed to grasp it better? I don't think that Ronaldo would be making much out of a haywire pass...

I never really understood the purpose of examinations. Or probably I have never thought about them... Probably I never would... In all probability, these exams will also pass by without affecting me in any adverse, or for that matter constructive way, as countless exams have already done so...

Not getting me? Don't try. I don't make much sense anyway. That is precisely what my examiners think. ;) .

Lights, Sound, Action!!!

Long time since I have written anything here. Had been home for Diwali - the festival of lights.

It has never failed to light up my heart with the brightest lights that could be. The festive spirit, the shining lights, the lamps lit all over the place, and above all, the fireworks!!

Yes, fire works. It really works. It ignites me. Elevates my mood like a ball of hot gas. The balls of flame that appear for a nanosecond, giving out light, and a lot of sound. Instant Karma. In other words, crackers. :). The fire of the type that goes up into the sky and creates more fire up there. Making me stand up and lift my head. In pride or in awe, it doesn't matter. I just hold my head up high... Rockets, you see... Loads of other fire stuff. I love it ALL. I am a fire sign guy. Sagittarius.

I absolutely ROCK!! And I love going on ego trips...

Hunger

The day today has been worthy of mire
And I have been living off nothing but the atmosph'i're
Grumble grumble growl growl
Hear all ye, I think my tummy is on fire!!!

Not Really A Dog's Life...

I think I have been leading a dog's life. I won't be unhappy if I were talking in the literal sense of the term here, but metaphorically speaking, it is taxing. Why is it so that everything seems to be going against me? Like everyone is trying to take something away from me? Why is it so that each and every rule that is made seems to be against me? Aren't there any pro-people rules? Rules that people love to follow?

But somehow, somewhere, I do see a silver lining. That things aren't that bad as they seem. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe I won't ever get stuck up in a queue. Maybe people will be happy for what I am, for what I do for them... In my own way... And maybe, she will say that she loves me... Well, that is a BIG maybe...

Meanwhile, talking of silver linings, do they always come with dark clouds? Couldn't they just be there for me WITHOUT the dark clouds, strewn all over like spent confetti after a big party which took place with the sky as its floor... Silver linings of all colours. I'd love the yellow ones... :)

Highs and Lows

I am realising that one can get high and low at the same time.

She just called. We just chatted on things. What's up and what's not. She does like me a lot. But I just can't go running to her. Einstein probably lied. Space-Time can't be really curved. If it could have been, Love would have done it by now. There is no force more potent that Love, is there?

College does have a tendency to take the punch out of life at times. Sometimes it puts the punch back in so hard that it feels like you have been punched in the face. No. I am not joking. The fun in college comes at a price. A price that may get too high if you end up having too much fun. I probably AM having a tad bit too much fun. That is what is getting me low. This is college's way of giving me the kicks in my life and making them feel like kicks on my ass.

Bad.